Reflection

That moment changed my whole life forever.
I lost the most important person.
The ones I loved and trusted the most all left me in my misery.
Letting me drown in my pain with no rescue.
I was all by myself.
I had no other choice than to be someone I am not.
Pretending to be someone was my only salvation to this unstoppable pain.
I became someone who didn't open up to people, a heartless cold human.
Only when I was alone, my true world would crush down and I could brokenly suffer by myself.
Months after months.
I became someone else totally different from who I was, that was my only way to get trough this awful life.
They say after a time you became better but that were just lies to give you hope.
When things are getting less hard, you see people of your past who brings you memories that you've tried to buried.
With your head high you pretend and ignore them for awhile.
But when that one special person suddenly appeared after fore years.
I knew that I wouldn't be able to control it.