pretending
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Last published Mon, Jan 10, 2022
hello my name is kaydian and I'm a young aspirin poet.. yes!. this is not a story this is a poem but through my poems I like to tell stories so if you read it well you will understand the story I'm trying to tell 🙂
This poem is about a girl who tries hard to fit in and in the process realizes that she's changed and so she goes into depression and is asking for help to find her way back but instead gets criticism, which is what happens in today's society, when someone falls into depression or acts out people say they've gone mad or their disrespectful and it's very sad because all they need is someone to talk to and encourage them.
I hope you enjoy my poem as I enjoyed making it 😊
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