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Always

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Parts 9
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poeticnightmare

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It's not like I meant to fall in love with him. Who would imagine their best friend breaking her heart? He breaks it everyday, when he's with her. The cheap slut who loves the first guy that looks at her. He's so smothered with infatuation that he doesn't even know how I look at him. The way I light up around him, smiling, when I wouldn't dare with anyone else. Deafened by what he thinks is love, he doesn't hear what I've been saying all along.
"I love you, Ryker Lawson. I always have." 
I'd tell him, but I can't let something as stupid as love screw this up. I'd lose him forever.
That's one thing I can't do. Because even if he isn't mine, I know I'd die without him. 
He's always been there, through the tears, the love, the heartbreak, and the lonely nights. We had late night phone calls until one of us fell asleep, until she came around. Now I'll be lucky to get a text before bed. 
If love is forever, why would one want to endure such pain for so long? Love isn't easy, it isn't simple, and from what I understand, it doesn't feel good.
How can I take it away?All Rights Reserved

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