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Pain Killer

Irlylikewaffles

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Parts 35
Time 5h 18m

Reads 1,158
Votes 45
Parts 35
Time 5h 18m

Irlylikewaffles

anxiety christian clean cleanromance collegestruggles comingofage delilah depression faith findinghopeingod hope love psychological romance sad safelove suicidalthoughts suicide trauma uri youngadult

[Completed AND EDITED Novel]
"You sure you're alright?"
"Yep, I'm okay." I purse my lips, watching the little dust particles float in and out of the phone's light. "I got my required dosage for the night."
"What is that?"
"You."

For as long as she can remember, Delilah has battled her demons at every waking moment. But one day, her expectations of life begin to disentangle when she has a chance encounter with a smiling stranger.
Numbing her pain, his unwavering smile becomes an antidote to the shadows that plague her existence.
A pain killer, if you will.


Contains themes of suicide, anxiety, depression, and self-harm. Be aware, there is NO sugarcoating
Now available as a hardcover on Amazon! ~ Pain Killer - Catherine Buchholz ~

GUYS, I EDITED THIS WHOLE THING
a few comments have talked about Uri being a creep, and Delilah being a blank sheet (sound familiar? Twilight? anyone?) so i took into my able hands the job of:
a. making Uri a better ML overall, he's nicer and more gentle which is what i strive for with my male characters in general.
b. i gave a personality to Delilah. in the beginning, she was simply a face for my demons and mental issues, but when i decided to make this into a real novel, i had to face the fact that she was just.... flat-out boring and unrealistically blank (and selfish too... made me rethink my own views haha...). so hopefully this helps the book go smoother and everything. 
enjoy!All Rights Reserved

anxiety christian clean cleanromance collegestruggles comingofage delilah depression faith findinghopeingod hope love psychological romance sad safelove suicidalthoughts suicide trauma uri youngadult

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