Unwell

I can feel the same feeling again.. The lonely butterfly keeps flying in my stomach. Three times in a row.. Is it destiny? Am I destined to be like this forever? Do I deserve this kind of pain? Why? What did I do? Did I hurt Anyone? I keep on asking why? Is there anyone who can answer me? Can you give me a reason why it keeps on happening to me? ... I just want to be happy.. I want to be loved.. I just want someone to miss me,care for me . That's all.. I just need their attention, their love . I don't really feel good nowadays.. I can't sleep . I don't like to eat even my favorite foods . I can't do what I love to do most.. I wanna cry louder . I wanna scream. I wanna run until I lose my breathe . The thing I'm scared the most is happening again.. and I can't stop it now . Feels like I'm floating.. Inside my mind it's a hollow.. a vast hollow.. my senses isn't good either . I'm trembling.. No words can really describe what I feel right now . I don't need anyone now.. I wanna be alone . I wanna have my own world starting today.. Im gonna live in my own world . Where's no one gonna hurt me again . No one !!!