why do i trust you?

never in my life would i have thought i would be happy again. i never thought someone would care for me again. why would someone care for me? im a person who doesnt even remeber my own name, i do what the boss says with no questions asked, and ive killed more people than i can count. but for some reason..
you care for me..
why do you care for me?
why do i care for you?
why do i trust you?

haha sorry for that really fucking cringy description.
this takes place on the myst_smp (theres some uppercase letter in there but im to lazy to add them) which is a smp that my sibling (MushroomFearie) created. i play as the charachter 0000 and this is his story.

be warned:
swearing. a fuck ton of swearing,
slow updates
murder
mean voices
abuse
munipulation
homophobia and transpphobia (ew. imagin being homophobic and transphobic.. my fault for creating shitty charachters for all of us to hate.)
and probably other things that i cant think of right now.