Unfree Soul

Heiress...

A woman who is in line for a throne or wealth.

A woman like Me.

Bata pa lang ako, alam ko ng malaki ang resposibilidad na nakapatong sa balikat ko. That one day, I will be the next in line to my parent's wealth and responsibilities.

So I needed to prepare myself, I needed to be better. I needed to be strong, and God knows how hard I tried to be. However, Ialways thought that I am trapped inside my own cage. A cage that even if it is made with woods, I can never make my escape. It's as if I'm too weak to break the walls around me. I was lost... and afraid.

I needed to protect what was left of me. My family. My job. And my hanging heart.

There were times that I questioned destiny, why is it every time that I felt free is like as if I am sending my self to my own prison?

Tama nga ang sinabi nila na kapag sobra, hindi na tama. But I can't keep myself to wonder, wala na ba akong karapatang maging masaya? Wala na ba akong karapatang maging totoo sa sarili kong nararamdaman? Wala na ba akong karapatang maging malaya?

They say, it's better to let go of the past. But how can I let it go when it's the only thing that is giving me a small peck of the light in the darkness? One thing is for sure, that I am trapped to this, I can never escape.

But in this twisted life, it gave me a key to open myself up, a key that could open my cage doors to something that I always dreamed and yearned for.

Or yet, a key to make me shatter big time. Shattered that no one can ever fix me.

I am not sure if this twisted life gave me a key to be truly free or a key to remain myself as an unfree soul.

Because life gave me Andrei Phillipe Pfirrman.

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A/N: this is an on-going story. Posting of updates will be at least 2-3 times a week