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Holding On | Bucky Barnes

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Parts 32
Time 9h 40m

It's been two months since Y/N returned to the Compound, but despite her best efforts, she can't seem to escape her trauma. Nightmares haunt her at night, while memories stalk her during the day; a never-ending cycle that she hopes she can smile her way through.

She finds distraction in her busy schedule and a few quiet moments in-between, but no matter how hard she tries, she can't forget. And now that the world knows who she is, she likely never will.
Some see her as a hero, others see her as a weapon. Y/N doesn't know which to believe-especially with the little control she feels she has over her life anymore. 

The journey to recovery is never easy, but Y/N thinks it may be impossible.
 
***

[Part 2 of Reaching Out] 
[Bucky Barnes X Reader]
[1st person POV]

MAIN THEMES FROM PART 1: Y/N with powers, moving in with the Avengers, Bucky+Y/N romance, quick-burn, drama and trauma (of course), fluff on fluff on fluff. 

NOTES:
Follows a timeline where Hydra is still active after 2014 (CA:WS), Avengers didn't break up after Civil War, and takes place ~one year after Bucky's return from Wakanda.All Rights Reserved

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