"I never was afraid of dying. It's painless, you have a feeling like you're floating, lost.. And no one actually knows what happens after. They say that we either go to Heaven or Hell, but what if it doesn't exist? Will it really matter, all of our deeds, in the end? No. It wouldn't matter. No one judges you when you die, the only one who can judge you is yourself.
I'm looking forward to it. To that sweet feeling of numbness, when I finally let go of all the strings that held me back. And as my sight slowly fades away and my heartbeats slows down, my mind will start screaming, gasping for air. Because I did the one thing I promised myself I will never do. One thing that makes all of it matter, that makes you weight your options and regret every bad thing you did. I fell in love. "
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Sin James is a 17 year old boy, diagnosed with cancer. He's been living with it for months, since the doctors said that in this state, it wouldn't effect his studies and life. Until one day, he was sent to the hospital, as it developed, spreading through his body. He knew he didn't have much time left, and all he wanted was to get it over with. But a single soul he will meet in hospital halls will change his opinion. Was death what he really wanted? Will it all go as he planned? Is it possible that this young, sick boy could make him want to fight, for himself, for them both?
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The story was inspired by a Roleplay between my very best friend and I, and yes, it is boyxboy, yaoi, or however you want to call it. If you don't like it, don't read it. It was a real journey to roleplay and develop the story, and I hope it will touch your heart and sink under your skin, just like it did to us.
CRINGE WARNING!
First book I ever wrote on here!!
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"Sometimes the person who you are willing to take a bullet for is the person behind the gun."
I stood peering over the cold lifeless body that lay before my eyes. I had always thought of death the enemy, but right now, I blessed it upon the person who is now at peace. Sometimes you don't need to be the smartest, or the fastest, but you do need to be wisest.
They say the blood runs deeper than water, and I believe it, because even though the people that we love can turn on us and begin to hate us, they are only human, meaning that soon they will begin to see how short life really is and how it is not to be wasted.
People who seem perfect and they look like they have no floors'; they are the people who are suffering, like I was. But I found my savior in the most uncommon place. He was able to look through my mask, he saw the cracks, and tried to fix the broken girl that hid away deep inside the girl who only wanted to be seen as 'fine'.
I slowly began to find comfort and safety in him, and I did the same to him. We were two broken people becoming whole. Someone once said when you pass, if you can count your true friends on one hand you are beyond lucky, and I even though I did not like the person that lay before me, I know that he once had true friends, including me.
I'm a 17 year old girl who has suffered more than any other, beginning to believe that 'Hope' was just another word the people throw around. Until I fell in love with a badboy.
Trailer to the side -------------------> Made By @Laura__1
Cover made by @Beautiful_Tragedy8
Copyright 2014