"aku akan pulang dalam beberapa bulan, aku janji"
satu bulan, dua bulan, satu tahun, tiga tahun sudah nada lewati tanpa lelaki itu disamping tempat duduknya. benar, beberapa bulan itu bualan belaka sampai nada sudah duduk dibangku universitas, menjadi mahasiswa.
"ayo, kita masuk jurusan musik!"
"nad, aku akan daftar les piano sama kamu"
"nad, ay-
nada kira itu sudah janji palsu yang paling menyakitkan ternyata kehadirannya sampai saat ini adalah omong kosong yang paling tak ada corak atau benang benang kusut, seakan itu hanya kalimat pengarang semata.
sampai nada sudah anti dengan janji palsu dan omong kosong.
"aku kira ayahku adalah lelaki yang paling jahat, itu sebelum aku ketemu kamu, can"
@ greennial, 2k22
Ella is falling apart trying to live a "perfect" high school life. Then she meets Ren, who can see past her scars. Suddenly perfection isn't her only option.
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Ella Volkov is a gifted music student, but she's depressed and starting to crack under the pressure of high school. Her overbearing father won't even let her choose what instrument she plays. Then she finds herself alone at a party with Ren, her best friend's crush. She'd always thought he was rude, but after that night he's all Ella can think about. Now she's trapped. If Ella dates Ren, it will ruin her friendship with Jenny. But if she stays true to Jenny, she's losing the one person who can see past her scars. It's up to Ella to decide if she will forge her own path, or stay in the "perfect" box designed for her...
Content and/or Trigger Warning: depression, anxiety, self-harm, violence, sexual assault.
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