I don't understand!?
ARAIKz
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ARAIKz
Ongoing, First published Jan 19, 2022
Mature
bodyshameframinghatredlifemiddleschoolmisfortunemultiplepersonalitydisorderproblemsquestionssuicideattempts
This story is about a "female" school student who is envied by others since this girl has the "PERFECT LIFE" besides the fact that her parents are divorced and she struggles each day. Everyone thinks she exagerates about her life being misrable. Others only hang out and are nice to "her" when their regular buddy isn't at school, so they don't appear as a loner or a pathetic human being to others. "She" is always manipulated and abused wether "it isn't abuse" according to some since people don't do it physically. "She" always over thinks things and doesn't tell her worries to others or share "her" burdens, on the countrary she takes others burdens making them her own and handles them, but no one ever really asks, "Are you ok?" it's never truly real that they care or worry for the "girl" since they don't even know their real name or gender they only call "her" the "Train Wreck."
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