♐not a bed time story♐

what if everything changed. right before your eyes .without even a clear sight of knowing it'll happen ?
what if you lost someone you loved ......

I know exactly how that feels and Five months after my heart was ripped out . I am tragically a different person. I cannot decide weather that's a good or bad thing .
I've came to the point where there Is nothing I can do and nobody can save the person I've become.
They say "everything happens for a reason" Did I lose the love of my life so I could feel the ache inside my chest to feel a little bit more alive? or Did I lose sleep all those long tragic nights to hear the stillness in of the world to see it be reborn every single day again ? .
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I guess I could sumblinamlly answer those myself.
The pain inside my chest was simply my heart sorrowing for his other half to come back .The long nights were so painfully long my head was filled with thoughts even a poet couldn't even handle .The mornings after crying were painstaking.