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My love, My life

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Parts 11
Time 1h 42m

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How could he possibly love me? My eyes were a vague blue, like the sky and changed all the time; they were indiscriminate but fleeting entirely specific and disloyal, so that no one trusts me. I was always looking away. Or again at something after it has given me up, like Christopher. They were so cold and distanced not warm and loving like his. How could anyone love my eyes or me?

This fanfiction will get a bit longer than the other's since it's probably my last of Alan and Christopher. 

Shout out to my friend Amy who helped me when I didn't know how to continue. She was a big help to me!All Rights Reserved

1929 alan alanturing alexlawther christopher christophermorcom cryptography england gay homosexual jackbanon love loveislove lovestory morcom pan pride rainbow rainbowflag sherborne spring summer theimitationgame turing

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such great heights // bastille

"I am thinking it's a sign, that the freckles in our eyes are mirror images. And when we kiss they're perfectly aligned." I sang softly, nearly overpowered by the sound of my guitar. I was rusty, but all in all I didn't think it sounded too terrible. I didn't dare glance up to see what my boys thought of it. "And I have to speculate, that God himself did make us into corresponding shapes. Like puzzle pieces from the clay. And true, it may seem like a stretch. But it's thoughts like this that catch my troubled head when you're away. When I am missing you to death." I had been stoic and strong through this whole thing. I had to, I wanted to for the sake of the men I loved. They needed an anchor, and I was capable. But playing one of Dan's favorite songs now hit me so painfully hard that I was afraid I would just lose it right then and there. I got the strong sense that this would be the last time. TW: terminal illness