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Alexander's always had a tough time finding "the right one" as he would say. He had always dated girls, believing he's straight. He can never find someone to deal with his mental health and the problems going on within. That is until he met Ryan that is. As soon as Alexander laid his eyes on Ryan his whole life changed for the better.
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I wanted to say that the main character and the one that you will be reading as, has bpd (borderline personality disorder) and i decided to do that so that i can possibly inform some people about what it is like inside the mind of someone with bpd! and what batter way to do so than write a book of a story about someone with it? haha so smart i know!!! but anyways i hope that you enjoy this book and i hope that you possibly learn something new at the end of it!- your loving author Pluto😁
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