Looks Are Deceiving

Have you ever wanted something so bad that you'd do anything to get it but once you have it you no longer want it? That's my life. I fought so hard to obtain this life but now I wish I never fought for it in the first place. I wish everything was different. I want to change it but I don't want to hurt those who are close to me, I don't want to disappoint them farther with my decisions. I have no idea what to do but I only have a short period to decide because something big is about to happen, I'm not sure what, but it's something big-I can feel it- and I'll have to make my choice.