11 parts Ongoing Mature24 year old River O'Connell has spent almost half his life pining after his best friend. When he finally gets a chance to confess his love for Lucien and the two become a couple, the unthinkable happens.
Lucien commits suicide; not knowing that the man he loves had planned to ask him to marry him that night.
River is devastated. He has spent his whole life around Lucien, and half of it madly in love with him. He didn't see the signs of struggle, or what lay beneath Lucien's bright smile. Now, River has become a shell of a person and nobody knows how to pull him out. Without Lucien, he doesn't know how to live.
Navigating through daily life has become a hardship for River, and he no longer knows if he belongs in this world anymore. His career in the NHL slowly starts to deteriorate and he spirals massively.
Watch River learn how to deal with his new life, and the journey he undergoes to understand heartache, grief and acceptance.