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" 𝙄 𝙬𝙖𝙣𝙩 𝙩𝙤 𝙗𝙚 𝙘𝙧𝙖𝙫𝙚𝙙 𝙗𝙮 𝙮𝙤𝙪. 𝙄 𝙬𝙖𝙣𝙩 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙩𝙤 𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙣𝙠 𝙖𝙗𝙤𝙪𝙩 𝙠𝙞𝙨𝙨𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙢𝙚 𝙖𝙨 𝙢𝙪𝙘𝙝 𝙖𝙨 𝙄 𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙣𝙠 𝙖𝙗𝙤𝙪𝙩 𝙠𝙞𝙨𝙨𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙮𝙤𝙪 " - 𑁍 - ------> ᴀ sᴛᴏʀʏ ɪɴ ᴡʜɪᴄʜ ᴅᴀᴢᴀɪ ᴏsᴀᴍᴜ ғᴀʟʟs ʜᴏᴘᴇʟᴇssʟʏ ɪɴ ʟᴏᴠᴇ ᴡɪᴛʜ ɴᴀᴋᴀʜᴀʀᴀ ᴄʜᴜᴜʏᴀ's ᴏʟᴅᴇʀ sɪsᴛᴇʀ ᴛᴏ ᴛʜᴇ ᴘᴏɪɴᴛ ᴏғ ᴏʙsᴇssɪᴏɴ. *SLOW BURN ALERT!* *SPOILER WARNING!* { FEM READER x O. DAZAI } I don't own BSD or the characters. Majority of the plot is my own original idea so please don't copy. I'm fine with inspiration being taken from my work but pls give me credit where it's due😅😘

If You Don't (Fyodor X OC) by MorbidGhost

꧁•⊹٭ "𝙸 𝚕𝚘𝚟𝚎𝚍 𝚑𝚎𝚛 𝚊𝚐𝚊𝚒𝚗𝚜𝚝 𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚜𝚘𝚗, 𝚊𝚐𝚊𝚒𝚗𝚜𝚝 𝚙𝚛𝚘𝚖𝚒𝚜𝚎, 𝚊𝚐𝚊𝚒𝚗𝚜𝚝 𝚙𝚎𝚊𝚌𝚎, 𝚊𝚐𝚊𝚒𝚗𝚜𝚝 𝚑𝚘𝚙𝚎, 𝚊𝚐𝚊𝚒𝚗𝚜𝚝 𝚑𝚊𝚙𝚙𝚒𝚗𝚎𝚜𝚜, 𝚊𝚐𝚊𝚒𝚗𝚜𝚝 𝚊𝚕𝚕 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚍𝚒𝚜𝚌𝚘𝚞𝚛𝚊𝚐𝚎𝚖𝚎𝚗𝚝 𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚛𝚎 𝚌𝚘𝚞𝚕𝚍 𝚋𝚎" - 𝙲𝚑𝚊𝚛𝚕𝚎𝚜 𝚍𝚒𝚌𝚔𝚎𝚗𝚜 ٭⊹•꧂ She was an assassin sent to bring forth his end. He was a mastermind with a growing reputation. She should've known better than to make a deal with the devil. He should've known better than to spend too much time with his prisoner. She grew fond of him. He grew curious of her. The tables have turned, and all that's left is truth. *medium/long chapters* *Fyodor x female OC (Anastasia)* ***MATURE CONTENT*** RANKS: #33 in FYODOR (7/14/23) #2 in FYODORDOSTOEVSKY (6/27/23) #20 in NIKOLAI (6/22/23) #6 in DECAYOFANGELS (6/22/23) #1 in BUNGOSTRAYDOGS (6/29/23) Started: 3/12/23 Ended: 6/29/23

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