After three children, all under three years of age, a marriage hanging on by a thread, finances on the brink of mere ruin, and a broken past, Lindsey finds out that she is pregnant, again. She's already so busy with her children, keeping up with the home that she can't even keep together, and dealing with her ex-husband she can't even fathom another child right now. But it's happened, the sickness has set into her body and she must make a decision being brought up a Christian all of her life.
Will Lindsey keep another baby during her greatest time of desperation for God to move in her life, or will she succumb to the ultimate betrayal of her belief? Through the toughest decision of her life, those who she should have been able to trust with her life, declines her plea for a change of heart.
Elliot's partner was his whole world, but after Allan's death, his ghost haunts Elliot's dreams. Everyone tells Elliot to move on, but he isn't sure he can.
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It's been a year since the love of Elliot's life, Allan, passed away. Everyone thinks he should have recovered after that much time, but Allan still haunts Elliot every night. He struggles to maintain relationships with his family, and despite a coworkers interest he can't summon up the courage to date. Elliot is living for the past, because to live for the present means he'll have to live with a hole in his heart. But the question Elliot has to face chases him through his monotonous days: is mourning Allan with everything he has truly living?
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