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If I Didn't Have You

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Parts 25
Time 2h 6m

Reads 21,006
Votes 1,228
Parts 25
Time 2h 6m

After finding out Clay has a severe and life threatening dairy allergy, he keeps getting more and more stomach aches and allergic symptoms to other foods to the point he is barely allowed to eat anything anymore. He is so sick of always feeling awful that not eating anything seems like the best way out...

Sapnap went through a traumatic past and has always been ignored by his parents because his disabled brother, George, needs all the help he could get. Sapnap starts experiencing more and more problems, every now and then reverting to a younger person while he skips school to escape his bullies.

Clay and Sapnap meet in an unexpected way and seem to get along very well. Clay loves taking care of George and the two finally seem to be able to talk about their hidden pain and feelings, but unfortunately, that doesn't solve the problems they go through...

Warnings:
-Anaphylaxis shock (severe allergies)
-Emotional abuse/neglect
-Disordered eating
-Self harm
-Bullying 

(For the rest, there's only mentions of a toxic relationship (with abuse and manipulation) and mentions drugs abuse)All Rights Reserved

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