Everything You Never Had

Love Me Series 1: Everything You Never Had

Alliana Serene De Amores who took all the responsibility to be the older even if she's the middle of her two siblings. She carried the weights of wounds of her own family - even if that means disregarding her own wounds. She believe that pleasing other could be the way to be loved... To be seen and valued.

They made her feel guilty for prioritizing herself instead of her family. They made her feel guilty for feeling sad and tired even she knows to herself - her body wants rest for a meantime. She grew up building her walls too high so others couldn't reach what she truly is. She doesn't want the people she love to see the bottommost of herself. The sadness and loneliness she felt in so many years because of trying to please other... For trying to be with other while herself needs someone to hold on too.

Isn't it painful to carry the wounds of others because they refused to heal their own wounds?

Isn't it painful to please others to be able to be valued? For trying to be the best but still felt unseen.

Isn't painful for being their to others while trying to manage yourself to be okay?

And now, there isn't a day without begging to God to give the love she truly deserve. She's not asking for perfection - but love that feel soft, gentle and calm. Someone would be her safe space when thing goes wrong. Someone who would be with her through ups and downs. Someone who will hug her flaws and insecurities when she can't do it herself. Someone who would hug her to soothe the pain -instead of scolding her for feeling that way. Someone who she could be vulnerable with.

And now, she met - Gabrielle Zion Mendoza. She felt all the love she yearns for so many years. But she grew up of believing - she doesn't deserve it. Thinking that if she shows her vulnerable side he might used against her. Will she accept him? Will she try to lower her walls she build for so many years to be with him?

Started: 6/23/2025
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