"Do you always have to lose one great thing to gain another?Why can't you just have both? Why was losing something good so sad if you got another good thing to replace it? " Those are some of the questions McKenzie always seemed to ask herself and her best friends. Just how much she wanted to know the answers where driving her insane. Then she got her answers and wish she never asked the questions to begin with. Finding out the answers weren't easy for her but when she did she had mixed feelings of regret, sorrow and joy.