depression chapter one

A knife in my hand, I slid it down my arm over and over again, I let the blood run down my arm, it feels so good to release the pain felt inside me, at night I lay awake because I can't fall asleep, I can't stop.

" your such a WHORE Kali, ha you should go kill yourself"

" you're such a BITCH"

" you have a different boyfriend every week, you're such a fake, why don't you just go do us all a favor and go shoot yourself"

Having all these things running through my head. Plus the things my parents blame me for, things like that I'm getting a divorce.

It's 8 p.m., my parents are fighting still, and I'm crying, I quietly walked down the stairs into the door, and I open it slowly and quietly to make sure my parents can't hear me open the door once I'm out I closed it well tears are still streaming down my face.

I run in the direction towards the church and I have no idea where I'm going to go ybut I didn't really care about that I was too focused on trying to get as far away from here