Our Heart and Home

"Oh my god Lou, it wasn't about you," Harry shouted at him. Lou just stares at him with teary eyes.
"Our breakup wasn't about you....it was about me," Harry continues. "And what I needed," Lou starts to take a step towards him but Harry stops him. "Harry stares at him for a moment and after a minute of silence of them staring at each other Harry opens his mouth.
"Loving you was one of the hardest things I ever chose to do," Lou pulls a hurt face. "Don't get me wrong, you were such a good boyfriend and I loved you....I still love you" Harry says with a teary and painful smile. Taking a deep breath he continues, "But all the drama and the secrets we had with our relationship....I don't know if it was worth it."
Lou stares at him in disbelief, hurt at how he could think that. He opens his mouth to reply but Harry interprets what he was going to say.
"That morning," he starts and at that Lou snaps his mouth shut. "When I found out, alone, in our bed, was the worst morning of my life. And for you not to say anything about it when you got home except 'it's not what you think' was heartbreaking."
After a pause Harry continued, "I protected myself. I put my needs above yours and put myself first. I had to leave you. To save myself. So no Louis, me deciding to break up with you, was not about you."

What's more important? A reunion with the band and with his boys or the three lives that depend on him for everything, mean the absolute world to him, and their peaceful life together? Can he have and handle both or not?