Things I'm Thinking About
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MatureOngoing28m
Last published Fri, Feb 4, 2022
This started as a note in my phone but I wanted to share it for others to read as well. These are the thoughts that I have gone through after getting out of an unhealthy relationship, rejoining the dating scene, and rediscovering myself. It's so clear in the way I write when there's good and bad days. I just hope this shines light for people who have gone through something similar. Falling back is okay, this is a reminder.
I talk about the first boy that i allowed myself to be vulnerable with after the breakup. I talk about how i had to unlearn the ways of what I thought were love that I had forced myself to learn. I talk about many boys after him and i talk about the ups and downs that I felt through it all.
These are my thoughts, and I'm happy to share them with you. (Starting date: 9/20/21)
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