yea im making this out of spite cause a certain fanfic made me want to gouge my eyes out. cw for the people curious of reading this as there prolly gonna be desc of self harm, gender dysphoria, transphobia and who knows what else ill update once i have smth going. oh yea and im most likely never gonna finish this so yea/ update 9/4/22 i will no longer be continuing this fic. please read the last chapter for more info