i still love you, i promise. (OLD VERSION)
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  • Time 1h 34m
Ongoing, First published Feb 12, 2022
UPDATE: this is a novel that I was very excited to share with people at the time I started writing this, but recently, i've noticed that writing this felt more like a chore rather than enjoyable. So, i've decided to rewrite it, with different plots and characters. Im not sure when it'll be finished, but for the time being, you may read this :)






Two souls, two different people, two broken hearts.


Jude Williams and Maxine Lewis are inseparable, they've been friends ever since they were in the third grade. Jude was sweet and charming while Max's dark, mysterious personality contrasts. Their romantic feelings for each other seemed to win over the friendship, and they began to date. When Jude realized that she was a ball on Max's necklace, she backs away for the sake of her best friend's happiness, and because she was afraid of hurting her the way she'd been hurt before. Max had gone from lovesick to heartless overnight, wondering why Jude would ever do such a thing. In the story, "I still love you, I promise," the painful, heartwarming novel introduces the idea of how one's past leads to trauma and eventually compare themselves to more weight added on one's shoulders.




BEFORE READING:

this story contains disturbing and triggering content such as abuse, drugs, alcohol, eating disorders, self dysmorphia, depression, throw up and family issues. if uncomfortable with any of these topics, i advise you to NOT read.

this content may not be suitable for some audiences as it is a lesbian story; with that said, please DO NOT read and comment if you are homophobic and/or make fun of people's sexualities and races. 

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