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"𝙄 𝙡𝙤𝙫𝙚 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙨𝙤 𝙢𝙪𝙘𝙝 𝙩𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙞𝙩 𝙢𝙖𝙠𝙚𝙨 𝙢𝙚 𝙛𝙚𝙚𝙡 𝙡𝙞𝙠𝙚 𝙗𝙖𝙡𝙖𝙣𝙘𝙚 𝙬𝙖𝙨 𝙢𝙖𝙙𝙚 𝙟𝙪𝙨𝙩 𝙛𝙤𝙧 𝙪𝙨."


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Josiah Mere was mentally ill. He knew and understood that and he wanted to fix it. He wanted to be better and he also wanted a change so that was one of the reasons why he agreed to go on a two week trip from Los Angeles to San Francisco with sixteen other kids he never met, a trip planned by his therapist. 

He just didn't expect to find love in the midst of that.

Elijah Tripley was depressed. It was obvious and apparent but regardless, he didn't want to stay like that so that's why he decided to do something out of his comfort zone and intended to go on a trip filled with people he didn't know and wouldn't necessarily want to know. 

But Josiah came into his life and uprooted that plan instantly, even if they did get on the wrong foot in the beginning. 


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