Faith, no Rachel. She never wanted any of this. That first day in the bliss mimicked the day she first tried her fathers medicine. It made her happy, made the hurt- the demons all go away. But soon it began to harm her made her delusional, she tried to run away as she remembered every awful thing she did. But the father could always find her, and as punishment surrounded by her own drug induced hell she sits. Heeding the warnings of three women before her. Women that sat in the very room she had, in the same situation. All full of pity for the new herald, and offer her guidance. Better than any god could.