This is a suicide note in preparation, I do not mind anyone else reading this. If you're sensitive to anything like starvation, SH, suicide, blood, or anything like that, for your own well being I don't recommend reading this. This is my own personal problems and all so i'm hoping that some readers can connect to this and this makes them feel like they aren't alone. I'm also hoping this puts some of your problems into easier words, or something more understandable for yourself.