Maybe Some Day I'll Survive [Ferard]

Dear Journal,Maybe I'm insane. Because living the same day over and over again? That doesn't happen to normal people. Do you know what yesterday was? The eighth of January. Do you know what today was? The eighth of January, and I'd bet my life that tomorrow will be too. Not that my 'life' means much right now. I have twelve entries for the eighth of January, but just one for today. The same thing happens every day, and the thing is, no one notices it but me. The same thing happens every day,but I can't talk to anyone about what happens. Even if they believed me, I couldn't tell them. Because who just tells someone, that you committed suicide, yesterday and tomorrow? But who knows, maybe someday, I'll survive.
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Read to find out if Gerard will survive! Reminder this IS a Ferard fanfic. :3
Of you don't like journal entry type books, don't worry. Each chapter will start and end with Gerard's Journal entry, but instead of summarizing his day i'm just going to write the day as it happens but in a massive flashback.
:)