Alter Ego

I am Juliet,
The world can be a peacefull place, but my thoughts are my biggest nightmare. Every day, every night, another fight with myself. It feels impossible to win. Giving in isn't an option, but if I keep fighting I will destroy everything around me. No one is able to understand me, only I can understand myself. But sometimes I can't even understand myself.

Help me
is what I say
But when you do
I push you away
Want to know if you care
And you say that you do
Then my thoughts will tell me
He is a liar too
I beg you to not give up
And I ask you to stay
But when you say you will
I push you away