Withdraw

I sighed and looked at the photos that were plastered on the ceiling and that represented most of my memory, I smile as I take a good look at each of them but the ones of me and Bruno. I closed my eyes and just laid there all weak and limp because he's here, he's actually here, my 'best friend' is here. But why am I not happy? Why am I not hanging with him like other best friends do? What happened to us? What happened to 'Janeta and Bruno forever'? I guess those were just lies and rubbish that we created, we were to young and dumb to realize the future. He's got a better reputation than I have, with all that fame and fortune he created with his natural talent overwhelms me from the start I met him, but when he told me he's moving to L.A so soon, hurts me and he didn't even say goodbye and I waited 12 years for his presence to meet mine but I guess my dreams became delusional and stupid.

I sighed and looked at a photo of me and Bruno just happily smiling, but now, he's still happily smiling but I'm sadly frowning laying here in my dark room of emotions. Why couldn't he come earlier instead of now, all my life I tried so hard to forget him but now that he's here it just makes things worse and I can't even get one thing off my mind of him because he's right here, right out there in this atmosphere. I can't help but let it out, I cried as thoughts bunched in my mind of us together and it just made things worse for me now.

How can I retrieve from this mess that I'm in, I can't, I just can't. I just have to face him and stick to it, that's what life is all about, if you have friends then stay with them don't let them fade. Friends are friends and promises are just promises, there's no saying in that obviously, now that he wants to see me but I don't. If he didn't go then none of this would have happen, but now that he was so withdrawn from me it has happened.