Agita

when quackity moved in
with sapnap and Karl
he didn't expect to feel that way
he didn't want to step in
he didn't want to ruin them
he didn't want to, but
he filled his body with
anxiety and jealousy
he started to feel too much
to talk too little

the anxiety monster was always waiting outside his bedroom
he waited till he went outside, just to be slapped with waves of jealousy at the sight of Karl and sapnap making out, cuddling, calling themselves pet names, caressing each other; you name it, Alex couldn't stand the sight of the two of them, not because he was grossed out, or because he was homophobic, but because he knew that deep down he wanted to be part of those lovable moments, he wanted to be touched, to be kissed, to even be fucked by them, he wanted that... but he couldn't, he couldn't break their relationship, he couldn't ruin their friendship, he couldn't risk being rejected

so he swallowed his feelings
he swallowed all his thoughts
till he became numb
till he finally reached his stop
he finally exploded