wake up
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Last published Tue, Jun 21, 2022
Hayden Lovelace can't think. Her brain is always far away, even without the illegal pills she takes. Things that normally should be associated with each other are not. Connections aren't made. Her mind is faded, no matter if she's on drugs or not. The pills help her calm down when her parents fight, when she has horrible flashbacks that involved the boy that did not want to be saved, or when she saw Finn, a boy she was hopelessly in love with but has distanced himself from her.
When Rowan Parker moves back into town after spending months with an aunt, Hayden is shocked to see the difference. Gone is the hurt, abused boy that she had saved before he left. Here was an attractive, sweet mysterious boy that would knock her off her feet.
But when she heard the shots inside her school, she discovers that the outside might look different, but that does not mean the inside is. She learns that unhealed, untreated trauma that is brought to the surface could make a person lose all their progress. She learns that maybe, just maybe, if she had woken up long enough to see the signs, this wouldn't have happened.
This story is about a girl with an empty soul and a foggy brain. A broken bullied boy. They share a past that will bind them together forever-after all, she's the reason he's still alive today. But he didn't want to stay alive.
And he wants revenge.
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The School Player vs ME [DISCONTINUED]
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**It takes me a second to realize what is happening. Zac is kissing me! He is bloody kissing me!! Something then flashes and I realize Zac just took a picture of us. I push him away and back out of the car. How dare he kisses me and how dare he takes a picture! "WHAT THE HELL DO YOU THINK YOUR DOING?!!?" I yell at him. He shrugs and hops out the car like this was all a joke. Of course he think its a joke. He is Zac, the most annoying ass hole in the whole universe! "I need to add this to my collection." he says, showing me the picture he just took. I stare at the picture, anger building up inside me. He is so dead!** Katie Stone is your typical good girl and much to her dismay, she just so happens to live with the school player. She hates her life. She really, really hates it. And it's all because of one person: Zac Hansan. Zac is your typical high school heartthrob, who is always flashing his bad boy smile and stealing hearts. Zac loves his life, but not as much as he loves tormenting Katie. But much to Zac's dismay, his insanely good looks and bad boy attitude don't have the slightest effect on Katie. So what happens when these two are connected and dragged into the dark and messy past of their families? It is when this dark secret is revealed that both Katie and Zac are forced to put their differences aside and work together. Their actions will ultimately save their own lives, and they will be forced to make choices they never thought they would have to make. Can two people who hate each other change from being enemies to friends? Or possibly even more? ✕Important Notice: I WILL BE DOING MAJOR EDITING VERY, VERY SOON! KEEP IN MIND THAT THERE WILL BE A LOT OF SPELLING AND GRAMMAR MISTAKES! JUST A HEADS UP! 🎥Story Trailer: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zfGef2CyjCo
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