Dear Jason
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Last published Fri, Feb 25, 2022
This slow burn, somber teen drama follows the day to day life of Blayze Kaldor. As senior year approaches, Blayze starts writing letters to an old friend in an attempt to de-stress. He uses these letters to try and understand the battles he fights in his head, caused by the things that happen around him. As the year goes on Blayze learns more about himself as traverses the ups and downs that life throws at him and slowly starts to notice and trust the people around him who are willing to help him get better. Although, not everyone is so willing to help. Can Blayze win the war being waged inside his head?
Content/trigger warning: This story contains themes of bullying, homophobia, abuse, and suicidal thoughts.
Romance, Drama, Teen Fiction. Slight BXB
Currently at 83k words, with 3 more chapters left to write! :)
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Like a bolt of lightning, this stupid boy appeared in my life. First day of summer break between first and second grade, he just appeared- standing on my porch like he was born there. Straight brown hair, wide dark eyes and a fresh sunburn across his cheeks. He was already talking before I even opened the door. I don't know how it happened but it's been ten years. And he's still here. Talking, whether or not I'm listening. Laughing, even if no one else is. He's still too quick- racing around the world like he's scared he's going to miss it. He's gotten taller...much taller. His hair is a little longer, a little wavier, but under the light it still looks the same golden brown it did when we were nine. And now, finally, he was a high school graduate. We both were. Like a bolt of lightning he appeared and like the sun he refused to disappear. _____________________________________________ I fell asleep with my chin pointed at him, the outline of his face being the last thing I saw. How was I supposed to do this? It had always been difficult, hiding this secret, keeping him close. But now, my focus was starting to slip. I couldn't see anything but his lips, his hands, his smile. I couldn't hear anything but my name in his mouth, his jagged breaths and that loud laugh. How am I supposed to be okay with this? How am I supposed to focus on anything other than him? #1- slowburn- 11.10.25🥇 #1- friends to lovers- 11.01.25🥇 #1- fluffandsmut- 11.02.25🥇 #1- college- 11.06.25🥇 #1- best friends- 11.12.25🥇 #1- teammates- 12.04.25 🥇 #1- college roommates- 12.30.25🥇 #1- mental health- 01.02.2026 🥇 #1- gay love- 01.02.2026 🥇 #2- roommates- 12.18.25🥈 #3- bxblove- 11.30.25🥉 #4- boyxboy- 11.01.25 #4- lgbt- 11.15.25 #14- boyxboyromance- 12.15.25 #22- basketball- 12.15.25Complete
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"𝐼𝑛 𝑚𝑦 𝑝𝑒𝑟𝑠𝑜𝑛𝑎𝑙 𝑜𝑝𝑖𝑛𝑖𝑜𝑛, 𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟𝑦𝑜𝑛𝑒 𝑑𝑒𝑠𝑒𝑟𝑣𝑒𝑠 𝑠𝑜𝑚𝑜𝑛𝑒." 𝑀𝑎𝑦𝑏𝑒 ℎ𝑒 𝑤𝑎𝑠 𝑟𝑖𝑔ℎ𝑡. 𝐵𝑢𝑡 𝐼 𝑑𝑜𝑛'𝑡 𝑏𝑒𝑙𝑖𝑒𝑣𝑒 𝑖𝑡 𝑖𝑠 𝑎 𝑚𝑎𝑡𝑡𝑒𝑟 𝑜𝑓 𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟𝑦𝑜𝑛𝑒 𝑑𝑒𝑠𝑒𝑟𝑣𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑠𝑜𝑚𝑒𝑜𝑛𝑒 𝑠𝑜 𝑚𝑢𝑐ℎ 𝑎𝑠 𝑎 𝑔𝑒𝑛𝑒𝑟𝑎𝑙 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑐𝑜𝑛𝑠𝑡𝑎𝑛𝑡 𝑛𝑒𝑒𝑑 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑠𝑜𝑚𝑒𝑜𝑛𝑒 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟𝑦𝑜𝑛𝑒 ℎ𝑎𝑝𝑝𝑒𝑛𝑠 𝑡𝑜 𝑠ℎ𝑎𝑟𝑒. ☼ ☼ ☼ 𝖱𝗂𝗅𝖾𝗒 𝗁𝖺𝗌 𝖺𝗅𝗐𝖺𝗒𝗌 𝗁𝖺𝖽 𝖺 𝗋𝗈𝗎𝗀𝗁 𝗍𝗂𝗆𝖾 𝗐𝗂𝗍𝗁 𝗅𝗂𝖿𝖾. 𝖲𝗁𝖾 𝗍𝗋𝗂𝖾𝖽 𝗍𝗈 𝗄𝖾𝖾𝗉 𝗍𝗁𝖺𝗍 𝗁𝖺𝗉𝗉𝗒 𝗌𝗆𝗂𝗅𝖾 𝖻𝗎𝗍 𝗂𝗍 𝗐𝖺𝗌𝗇'𝗍 𝖺𝗅𝗐𝖺𝗒𝗌 𝗌𝗈 𝗌𝗂𝗆𝗉𝗅𝖾. 𝖶𝗁𝖾𝗇 𝖯𝗁𝖾𝗈𝗇𝗂𝗑 𝗐𝖺𝗅𝗍𝗓𝖾𝗌 𝗂𝗇𝗍𝗈 𝗁𝖾𝗋 𝗅𝗂𝖿𝖾, 𝗌𝗁𝖾 𝖼𝖺𝗇'𝗍 𝗁𝖾𝗅𝗉 𝖻𝗎𝗍 𝗉𝗎𝗍 𝗁𝖾𝗋 𝗈𝗐𝗇 𝖺𝗌𝗂𝖽𝖾 𝗍𝗈 𝗁𝖾𝗅𝗉 𝗁𝗂𝗆 𝗌𝖾𝖾 𝗁𝖾 𝗁𝖺𝗌 𝗇𝗈𝗍𝗁𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝗍𝗈 𝖿𝖾𝖺𝗋. 𝖧𝗈𝗐 𝖼𝖺𝗇 𝗍𝗐𝗈 𝗉𝖾𝗈𝗉𝗅𝖾 𝖻𝖾 𝗌𝗈 𝗉𝖾𝗋𝖿𝖾𝖼𝗍 𝖿𝗈𝗋 𝖾𝖺𝖼𝗁 𝗈𝗍𝗁𝖾𝗋? ☼ ☼ ☼ Just a bit of a disclaimer!! This book does reference suicidal thoughts and there are depictions if self harm! I am in the process of adding disclaimers to the proper chapters so if you are easily triggered by things, please check back in in a couple of days so that you are made well aware of any chapters that containComplete
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