And then he fell
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When I said "I'm over him." what I really meant was;
He still makes me laugh when we talk, I still pray for him to love me and be with me again, I still wish for him at 11:11, I cry myself to sleep almost every night while thinking about what we had, what we could've had and what I want us to be in the future. I still think of him 24/7, I'm still in love with him, I'm still in pain, I still want him and I still love him with everything that I have, and everything that I am. When someone tells me he does not deserve me. I still answer "Yes he does," and I even sometimes say "I didn't deserve him and thats why he left," even though I know it's not right. I'm still jealous of the girl he's now in love with, and I still wish it was me. I still have his number on my phone, and I've not deleted the messages he sent me.
I still got his picture, and I'm
so.not.over.him
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