Not the Hero

<3 I grab my watch for the 5th time in the hour. It had literally been 5 minutes. Only 3:47. Still. I try to close my eyes again, but it's only a better way to squeeze out more tears that don't seem to be running out. I can't believe I'm leaving tomorrow. No, today. I beg myself to fall asleep, but it doesn't work. I roll over, away from everyone else huddled in like sardines in a can. No one is seeing me like this tonight. Not here, in a dirty subway station. I don't need someone else to be stressed out either. I look around though. How can they all sleep so well? <3