Forever Crush

Do you remember your first REAL crush? Maybe you were in 5th grade. Well imagine that it has been 11 years since that crush has happened or since you've seen that person, and now you are 21 years old. Also, your 12 relationships/dates since that crush haven't worked because they either ghosted you or just told you that they thought this relationship wouldn't work. That's the predicament I am in right now. There had been many times that I asked myself, "Is it me? Am I the problem? Do these relationships not work because I'm not hot enough?" Those questions have 100% left my brain when I was on my way home from my late night out with my two best friends, and I saw the person who stole my heart all those years ago in an alley way murdering someone with two other guys. My first crush has come back into my life and I'm not sure he actually ever left it in the first place.