Ashttyn Marceline
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Ongoing, First published Mar 10, 2022
Mature
A suggestion from my therapist, turned into my own little project <33
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This is mainly for vent. This whole book is to remember where I came from, all my trauma and just juicy parts of my life that made me what I am today really. 
I've been writing this for a bit but got demotivated but I brought it back up and I only now realize how healing this feels. It brings me some kind of closure.
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Contains: sexual assault, self harm, suicide, suicide attempts, abuse, drugs, alcohol, cussing, assault, eating disorder, purging, self deprecation, body dysmorphia, drugs/drug-use, rape
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