Trigger Warning: contains graphic scenes and depictions of child abuse.
Izzy hasn't had an easy twenty, almost twenty-one, years. In fact, for the first seventeen years of her life, she was physically and emotionally abused by her alcoholic mother, never able to escape the terrible life she'd been thrown in to. At eighteen, she escaped the beatings and moved into an apartment with her best friend, Reagan, but she's far from fixed. Her mother still haunts her nightmares, still lives in her head, causing her severe anxiety, depression, and PTSD. She can't win, can't escape, can't just be happy .. and all because of the woman who gave birth to her. But, despite all of that, she allows herself to finally find some hope when she's hired as her favorite baseball team's new manager - a true dream come true. More than becoming the manager, getting to hang around baseball for the majority of her days and get paid for it, she has the opportunity to work with her favorite player and celebrity crush, Noah Parker.
Noah Parker, baseball prodigy, total heartthrob, has a past - a past that nobody can know about - and has secrets that nobody will ever find out. If people find out, if his well-kept secrets escape his clutches, things will never be the same. Instead, he puts on a show for the cameras, acts like a total jerk, somebody who cares about nobody and nothing - it's the only way to keep him safe. If nobody likes him, after all, they can't break his heart, or worse, leave.
Until the two meet, neither believe in the possibility of finding somebody that could love them - having deemed themselves unlovable - but once they do, there's no taking back the cascade of events that cause them both to fall, hurtle, headlong into devotion for each other.
"You shouldn't need to drink to try and drown your feelings Kayla. I've watched the people around me do this all my life and it doesn't fix anything."
"I know it won't fix anything, but for right now it helps me forget"
"You can't keep running away or hiding. In the end it all catches up."
"You sound like you've been through this before."
"I guess you could say that."
"You want me to open up to you, but are you ever going to open up to me? I want to get to know you Tyler, but you are so closed off. You know why I got knocked over by that wave? Because I was watching you, I was watching your face and seeing how free you felt riding that wave. It's the only time I've ever seen you let go. You know that someone hurt me, but I think you have been hurt too. When you're ready to talk, I'll be waiting. Maybe we can help each other."
"Maybe I'm not worth getting to know" he replied.
"And maybe I'm not worth you trying to save me either. Or maybe I am" With that I got up and left him to think about what I said. I put my cards on the table, now it was up to him to make the next move.
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A year ago, Kayla had it all, doting parents and a relationship with her older brother that others envied. By the end of junior year that changed, she's left broken after a series of events in her life, but she is determined to hide her pain from her friends and enjoy the summer. That is until she meets Tyler, who can see right through the hurt. He has his own secrets though and isn't ready to let anyone in. Together they will either fall apart or fall together.