Dying To Live | Jalex
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Last published Mon, Jan 4, 2016
"No! Don't you dare say you understand, or pity me, or think I should do something cause I can't. I can't Rian! Jack is happy and as his friend I should be happy for him!" The tears were now pouring down my face.
There was silence as Rian carefully thought over the words he wanted to speak, making sure he didn't say anything to upset me more.
Rian sighed. "Even if it means you're the one in pain?"
"Even if it means I'm dying inside"I said, turning on my heels and running back to the bus.
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WARNING: never, and I mean NEVER, play 'truth or dare' with a bunch of guys and a bottle of vodka. Especially if you like one of them. So how did I fall for Jack Barakat did you ask? It all started with a drunken game of 'truth or dare'
Jack and Alex have always been the best of friends but when things get too wild after a show, will the two boys remain friends or will their friendship spiral out of control? One drunken kiss causes feeling to arise in Alex that he never knew existed. But the real question is, will Jack feel the same?
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