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Suicide Diary.

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This is a diary about how fucked up my brain is.

HUGE TRIGGER WARNING.

I will be talking about self harm, suicide, eating disorders, phobias, mental illness, sexual assault and there will be cursing among other things. If you are easily triggered or do not like these topics please do not read this.

This is not fiction, these are actual thoughts and I might also be talking about actual events as well. Please note that I am an adult and of legal age.

Despite what the title implies this is not a suicide note. Consider this my Hannah Baker tapes without the actual suicide.

This will be written in a poetic writing style.

I doubt anyone will read this. But if anyone does. I hope you enjoy my messy mind and messy life.All Rights Reserved

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