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Last published Tue, Mar 22, 2022
I want to get lost. To vanished for a moment. I want to die but I actually want to live. Please tell me, when will I be able to get that peace of mind, happy life, and just live comfortably in this chaotic world.
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Started - March 21, 2022
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