A rose by any other name still has bloodstains

It doesn't matter where you are, pain always follows you. At first, I thought that life (or unlife) here will be impossible for me. I believed even the slightest mistake might cost me my life. Eventually, however, I met friends, became a high ranking shinigami, and even have a lover now. But even after so many good things, the pain eventually returned. Originally, when I was alive, I couldn't bear it. It broke me. But now? Now I'll embrace it. If someone is suffering, I'll be there to share the pain. As long as others are happy and safe, feeling pain, no matter how much, will be the same as greeting a friend of old.