Is it selfish to have both? (Dabi x Shigaraki x Reader)

your quirk is hallucination you can make people see whatever you want and you can show them their worst fear
your parents were villains and you grew up in a really bad place you were poor and when they got caught a hero took you in trained you every day to become a hero you hated but you faked it in front of the hero you were sick of someone telling you who to bed but you could do nothing about it until you might the the lovers of your life that changed your life