Who I am {Phil Lester}
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Sometimes you question who you really are. Part of you seems to know yourself, the other is just a mystery.
Indigo Taylor manages to pull through each day looking after her alcoholic best friend and her suicidal brother. She's a shoulder to cry on for everyone, but herself.
Never stopping to think once about herself, Indie slowly begins to deteriorate and it seems no one will be able to help her until one fatal night when she lays eyes on Dan Howell and Phil Lester who looked as though they belong in either Hollywood or heaven.
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