Pain, Pain Go Away
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Publikasi terakhir Rab, Jan 14, 2015
Dear Woman,
You may be experiencing pain in your body right now or have suffered in the past. I feel your pain, literally. I’ve experienced the horrible pelvic pain and debilitating cramps that come with having endo. The pain was so bad at times, I felt like someone had karate-kicked me in the stomach, and I was going to die. There were days I couldn’t take it anymore. All I could do was cry out to God for relief.
My song was, “Pain, Pain Go Away, please don’t come back another day.” Have you ever sung that song? You might not understand why you’re going through this and experiencing so much pain. I sure didn’t understand why before I learned about endometriosis. I love people, and I bet you do, too. You give of yourself. You serve. You do the best you can do. You strive to live a godly life before your God. Yet month after month, you are in pain with no relief. Hoping the pain will just go away.
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