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It's the pain that keeps me alive

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Reads 37,801
Votes 1,035
Parts 32
Time 1h 26m

Mature

Y/n was kidnapped by hydra as a child and trained to become an assassin. Kill by kill she has been slowly getting her revenge. The last person on her hit list, the winter soldier. 

Will a run in with the avengers alter her aim? 

(buckyxreader)
(tonystarksdaughter)


This whole thing is just a main character moment.

Its pretty fast pace and pretty easy to read. 

This is the first book i've wrote so beware of the bad writing

TW: mentions of and attempted suicide, drug use, depression, mentions of an eating disorder, graphic self harm, mentions of rape, sexual assault

I do not own any of the characters apart from y/n- they belong to Marvel.All Rights Reserved

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