Why
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Ongoing, First published Jan 14, 2015
Mature
Sometimes I try to retrace my steps. I try to go back in time and pin point the date that it happened. But I can never find anything. No abuse, no rape, no traumatic death in the family. I’m just fucked up. And I
just keep getting more fucked up. I’m just on this constant downward spiral and I can’t stop it. It’s like falling into a fucking black hole. 

 I wish I could remember a reason. I really do wish there was a reason for everything that has happened to me. Or that I have done to myself. Either way, I wish there was a reason. But there isn’t. I wish there was a place I could start. Every story should have a beginning and an end. Mine doesn’t. 

But late at night, I do stay up sometimes and think. I think about a lot of things, things I don’t usually like to think about. But I stay up, I think about them, and I ask myself why.
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[2020 Watty Award Winner] Alice Rhodes, an aspiring actress who gets a heart transplant, has to live her heart donor's life like it's a movie role, in order to find her identity and the life that awaits her in Hollywood. ***** A heart transplant causes Alice Rhodes to remember her heart donor's life. Intrigued by the strange people from her new memories, she goes looking for them, only to find herself in the middle of an investigation of the absurd disappearance of an important woman. With her personality changing into her heart donor's, Alice navigates a mysterious world where nothing seems to make sense and yet everything is strangely connected. It's not long before she realizes she may actually be looking for herself in the missing woman, and as she yields to her new heart, she's longing for the one she lost. Content warning: This story contains mature sexual content and themes of depression, sexual assault, and violence. © Robert Peterson 2020