Under A Lucky Star

Committed *******
But failed
Either me I lost count how many times i committed
It's funny to think that at my age I started to commit this things what I can say my life was worst
At day time all you can see is a jolly me
But see under the curtain every night I silently cry and curse my self just to feel light
Every night I feel my heart clenching because of sadness, and depression
Even my own mother doesn't know about this because even if I tell her this she will just say that I'm pathetic
Every day I run to our room just to stay away from my nightmare
Every morning is a nightmare for me
And every night is my heaven because I don't need to hide my true identity
I don't care even if this sounds gay but I am very proud of my self for every tummy ache and headache that I survive
Even I can't show my real smile I'm proud of my self
I Lost my smile 2 years ago but it's ok I'm willing to wait for the time that my smile will show on it's on ☺️
My mistake was underestimating the power that can come from the pain that my family caused.
" I may face abuse in past but I am not broken. I am not a thing that can break but I can break anything that crosses my path."
I am not allowed to get tired
I wish I could tilted my head high and turned my tears into towers
"I never cared for the crown. I preferred a sword"
I don't take revenge I let them realize
"I'm the nightmare everyone wishes to wake up from but can't... because they were never asleep."

They doesn't care about what I work they are waiting for me to make mistakes. I was known as very ugly hatered girl of the family OPPPSS.... Am I part of the family?

Bobo Ka

Wala kang kwenta

Buang Ka

Matay

Punyeta

Way gamit

Deputa

Way gamit ang utok

Di nag iisip

Wa kay kwenta

Way tarong

Way utok

Maot

Tanga

Gamita imong utok ha

Bwesit

Nyeta

These are just some words that thrown at me